Sunday, August 05, 2012
It has been a summer where I have had little time to think about my travel phobias; I just put on my big girl panties and did it. Don't know if it is was the EMDR, getting older and braver, or help from GPS, but I had little if any anxiety about traveling - save for a few instances in Barcelona when 1) I got lost in an immense building and forgot where my friends were sitting in the outside cafes and 2) when I stopped to take a few photos on the street and my friends disappeared around the corner in what was only a few seconds. I don't speak Spanish, many there did not speak English, and it put me into instant anxiety mode. I lived through it and eventually found them, and quickly got over my anger which arose out of anxiety.
But those moments were few and far between, and I applaud myself for taking the risks, and going on trips that changed my life/art. I think that there are several blogs that I can write about the experiences.
And because I have not had time to update my website, I had two of my abstract pieces in a show at the Dog House Gallery in Woodstock, which ends today....and I have an encaustic painting of Mt. Tremper bungalows from my series at the Woodstock Art Asso. and Museum which ends next Sunday. No other shows planned for now, and I should take some time to check out calls for art.
And school....I still don't know if I have a full time teaching job yet. With so many rumors about more staff being cut, and/or programs being cut, I am not sure where I stand. I have been teaching for 20 years, and at this point in my life who knew I could be looking at more change. Every year I face change as I don't have one of those teaching jobs where you do the same thing over and over. My courses change, the kids change, or I decide to change the way I teach, or what I teach. If school change doesn't complicate things, my own way of working/learning/teaching does.
The bottom line is, travel, change, etc. keeps Patti from being stale. Or boring. The challenge for me is to stay centered, calm, and focused in what I do. And that might take a lifetime.
Today's art...fields in the Spanish countryside. Nearly completed....started in Provincetown, finished in Kingston.