Half a Century

It is late morning. I have been doing some research online, sipping on the coffee that Larry has kept refilled and hot on my bedside table. I am moving slowly, taking in the day and relaxing. A few phone calls have trickled in wishing me Happy Birthday. I actually took the time to enjoy talking on the phone and bask in the well wishes.

I have had a hellish week, topped off by starting medication which I am immediately stopping due to adverse reactions. I have not slept in a few days, and feel like I am crawling out of my skin. Instead I am going to the health food store, getting more supplements, and starting a collection of meditational CD's, DVDs, books, and need to take a yoga class that will be easy on my broken body.

After work yesterday a group of my coworkers met me out downtown for some laughter, snacks and drinks. I have a supportive group of friends I love and cherish dearly over the past 16 years. Afterwards, I met a few more friends with their dates for dinner at one of my fave local hangouts, which makes a decent margarita.

Today I am relaxing. Larry tells me I have to be ready to go out at 3, then dinner is at 8. I am not sure what is up, but I am thrilled to have him take the reins and create the day for me. I have spent too much of my life leading others, teaching others, being in the driver's seat.

Perhaps during the next 50 I will sit in the passenger seat, and let others lead ME. I will stop my chatter and listen, repress my constant need to control the world, and instead sit quietly and observe and learn. I have finally learned that the only thing I can control is myself, and let go of the rest.

Off to start the next 50....Patti

Comments

Janet said…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY POOTIE!
Judy Vars said…
You're an amazing woman Happy Birthday Patti :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

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