No Resolutions

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I am writing early today as I plan on making the most out of the last day of the year. I don't make resolutions because I see no sense in the guilt that comes from breaking them. I do, however, have goals or mantras for my life, and the New Year is a good time to take a look at what is working, what isn't, and what my focus will be for the future.

I promise myself that I will live a life full of sensuality. I will surround myself with things that make me feel wonderful; music, scents, friends, food, art, literature, long walks or hikes, adventure, travel. I will think prosperity rather than how I am going to pay the next bill. I will treat my body with love and respect, because "if I don't take care of my body, where else am I going to live?". (one of the best quotes I have seen on our firehouse sign). I will focus on what I did do, rather on what I didn't. I will love and respect every human being to the extent of my ability. I will be true to myself. Perhaps one of my hardest lessons is going to be learning how to breathe and accept what life has presented me with and make the most of it. A friend said recently that I have the uncanny ability to make lemon meringue out of the lemons that I have been handed; may that ability stay with me even in the darkest of hours.

This year I face new challenges. Two sick children; one mentally ill, the other has cancer. A grandchild who needs a lot of love, security and stability. There are others in my life who need me on many different levels too and I will keep myself strong and take care of myself first so that I can take care of others.

I believe that love and understanding of self and of others as well as the connection with a divine essence will be the key to peace in our lives and in the world. May I love with a pure heart.

I am grateful for another year and for those in my life. Each person and event serves a purpose and I embrace them all and will learn from each lesson. I am grateful for you, my readers, as you are part of my life force. May your New Year be blessed too.

I am going to work on my art today, and spend the day in solitude and quiet, surrounded by good music. My studio smells heavenly (thanks Ruben for the gift) and I will burn some sage to chase out the remnants of self-doubt. Later tonight, as you are reading this, I will be dancing out the demons of the old year and rejoicing in the new.

Love to you all, Patti

The painting is one I started today. Needs some more work, but thought I would post it here in celebration of the New Year!

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Anonymous said…
This is a beautiful post, so heartfelt with such a wonderful message. I wish all the best for you in the coming year. Even though I have never met you, I know you have the inner strength to meet these challenges.
ps......I love where this painting is headed.....
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