To Sleep, to Dream

It isn’t rocket science that if your life is a mess, it will impacts one’s sleep and dreams. For every action there is a reaction, plain and simple.

I could not sleep last night; my hormones were wrecking havoc on my body temperature, and my mind re-played various scenarios from last night over and over again. Then I had a pain in my toe and it was throbbing all night, and of course I obsessed about infection and the metal of that ankle and how that could land me in a hospital or kill me. (don’t laugh---one of the recent things my doc said to me was “be careful about ANY kind of infections in your foot or leg as the plates etc. will attract and hold the infection and can cause some serious problems, and I know someone who knew someone who died from this!!!!) Great. I am leaving in two days for California and don’t have time to deal with this. I will get to the conclusion of that story in a moment.

I wake up even on the weekends at 5:30 am, before the 6 AM alarm goes off, and this morning was no exception. I fell back to sleep, only to have a huge tractor trailer pull up in front of my house, with this thing that looked like a mini tank (and sounded what I imagine a tank would sound like) powering up. I have no clue what it was, or what it was doing, and I flopped back in my bed groaning, pissed off, and feeling really sorry for my neighbor with twin boys who was probably cursing them out more than I was.

I managed to fall back to sleep, and had a dream.

I dreamt that I was trying to get home, and I was stuck behind a roadblock while a funeral was happening. There was a HUGE platform, draped in black cloth. Underneath it a giant body. Then the wind started blowing, the body started shaking and moving, and the cover flew off and it was a black horse. I was shocked. What the hell????? “…“ to see a dead horse in your dream, indicates that something in your life that initially offered you strength is now gone. This may refer to a relationship or situation. “

Fast forward to the next scene. . Someone is talking about sex and saying oh, if you are married you have it made, when you are single you are desperate and must get it when you can. Fast forward to the next scene. The skeleton of the horse is sitting and looking over a bed with two skeletons of people laying next to one another, exhausted from what appeared to be a wild night. Next to the skeletal couple is a baby swing, rocking, and empty.

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ABOUT? I quickly looked up my dream symbols and translations. “To see someone depicted as a skeleton, signifies that your relationship with them is long dead. “

But this was a couple AND a horse…..and what was the empty baby swing? The closest to that was about an empty baby carriage…..“if it is empty, then it indicates sadness or an unfulfilled goal. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to cater to the needs of your own inner child.”

No matter the true meaning of the dream, it was F-R-E-A-K-Y.

Back to the foot story. I end up calling the doc, they bring me in and sure enough he says “yikes” and starts me on antibiotics, soak rituals etc. At least I won’t spend my vacation in a San Francisco hospital where no one can visit me. Not quite what MY doctor ordered.