I Don't Know
You are not here however, to listen to me whine. So I will get over it.
I will list the good things I did today and rejoice in them:
I got to see my friend Rob whom I have not seen in two months. We always have interesting conversations over some kind of drink and gnosh. On a whim we took off to Target and I bought myself a new piece luggage-an Eddie Bauer piece. 15 year warantee. I am sick of the luggage I have, all of which I have managed to mangle in some way; broken handles, missing wheels. I break luggage like I break corkscrews. So I will take off with my first ever new piece of luggage. OK to be fair, my mother did give me a suitcase set when I went to Italy when I was 19, but that has LONG since died.
I have some strange electrical things going on with my Honda CRV, and aside from that, I left my lights on for 15 mintues which drained my battery. It was dusk, we were ready to leave the mall, and there my car was DEAD. The good part is Rob knew that the mall security guards have a portable jumper and in no time they had my car jumped and running.
I got paid today which means I have a job and for that I am very thankful.
I leave for a five day break from my life on monday, and I will get to see a dear friend and just sit and relax and meditate on the direction of my life.
I am rambling here, mostly because what I really want to say I can't as it is just too personal. I can't get out of my head about it enough to make any sense out of life right now. All I can do is take it a day at a time.
A PS...Larry told me tonight that he thought I was too obsessed and hard on myself in many ways. I am driven, and I admit that. But I look at how far I have come in my life, and I don't know if I would be where I am without being driven. Well, while I am taking a break to renew myself, and will I think more on this. He thinks I drive myself crazy, a part of which is true. But then again, is he trying to tell me I drive HIM crazy? LOLOL......