The Second Solstice

For the heck of it, I went back to last year's blog entry on the solstice.

Interesting how introspective I was about family dynamics. Much hasn't changed much in a year, though I have learned how to deal with my family problems and issues and process them better. It still doesn't change the sadness and pain you feel when you see your children suffering and know there is nothing you can do to help them.

I worry about my 22 year old son, who is periodically unemployed, homeless, depressed, struggling, and who knows what else... I suspect several things, but perhaps it is better than I don't get too deep into it right now. I saw him yesterday briefly. I know things are not going well, yet they are situations I need to stay out of.

I went to two parties, managed to smile, but wasn't in my usual jovial mood. I met a large group of my co-workers downtown, then headed up to Woodstock for the Photography Centers Holiday Dinner at the Bear Cafe which is always a fun, bustling, aesthetically pleasing place, where often you can get a glimpse of some famous person.

All through the day when I felt sad or on edge, I remembered that each day from this day forth gets just a little bit longer, and the sun shines just a little bit stronger.

Megan and Alanna, are due in withing the hour. They flew in from Tennessee, and I can't wait to kiss their cheeks. They experienced long delays coming into LaGuardia; I am glad that I did not have to drive down there to pick them up. I hate driving much past Westchester. I am sure it handicaps me at times, but if I never drove past my sister's house in Pelham, further into the city, I would be just fine.

Off to do some decorating...Patti O Light